I should have know and predict this outcome would come sooner or later. Its just a matter of time. Isn't it too early to bid goodbye to my parents? I have not learnt to be independent yet i have to make a choice so early in such a age. Whether to abandon which?

Define maturity? What is matured and being mature? Why is it so hard to differentiate? Just because i'm younger than you that doesn't mean my mindset doesn't grow. Have you not think the other way round? So , you expect me to go back and look down on myself? Supporting myself in an unknown place, a not so familiar country?

I'm timid. I run whenever i face problem, i know this is life. I'm depressed..very depressed.

A leopard will never change its spot.

I should start a habit of blogging whenever i'm feeling low. Because till then, i have so much to blog about and to rant about.

You know how it feels like when you've  put all the trust in someone yet he broke your trust again and again. And before he break your trust, he build it up so perfectly and flawlessly that only a fool like me would actually believe he would really made up to his promises and fulfill what he had told me earlier. And then he would make up any excuses just not to break the promise again. Seriously why bother keeping promises with me  when you ain't really in the least of fulfilling it only breaking it.

First time i believed, ok i'm stupid. Second time i do so again, ok i'm dumb enough. Third time i believed you again, ok i'm giving you a chance to amend your mistake. Fourth time i believe again, i'm giving you one last chance. Fifth time, i promise i'm giving you the really last chance!! Sixth time, why the fuck would i want to give you so many chances when you're not even appreciating every of the chances given. Really reach my limit. But what could i do? You would only blamed me because you thought i wasn't giving you enough time.. but the fact is that you became even greedier when i gave you a bit after a bit.

No, i don't deserve all this. I deserve better...........I'm sick of shedding tears for someone who doesn't worth my tears at all. Every obstacles i'd faced, it only pulls me up asking me to stay strong, reminding me that i should shed tears only for someone whom really worth it. Sooner or later as times goes by, i would probably be having a clear concept of who i really wants to fight for.

I'm back.

Wow. After such a long period of not blogging, finally i came back. There's so many changes in me, in us, and nonetheless this blog as well. Well..i should say, maybe it's a new start for me again and when i say it's a totally brand new start, it will be including this post as well which means this is officially the first post i'm gonna start.

Life have been going up,going down, going smooth, going not. I miss the past. I miss everything about me but they say we have to keep moving in order to grow up. We have to let go of some things in order to gain something new.

Though the past cannot be brought forward anymore, meanwhile i did not forget to treasure the current. I can proudly says that i can handle both me and his relationship well.After several quarrels, we always manage to understand each other needs that's why we've walk till so far. Kind of relief because i never thought i would have met someone like him. Just to let you know that i love you more than anything else, fatboy.